Today is a new day. Yay. Yesterday's post was really tough. I am so glad it is out though. I feel lighter today. I feel like everyone knows now. Phew!! I am not hiding behind it anymore. It is what it is. All the shame, embarrassment, and guilt the divorce has caused me to feel is gone today. That feels good to say. I am sure it will rear its head again but, I will just have to shove it away again and that is OK. Today. I am holding my head up high.
Today, what ever you are hiding behind or wanting to get off your chest. I hope you can begin to let it out, too. Let go. And then let God take it from there. That is what I am doing!! Its easier said than done. When you are ready... yoU will!!!
Happy Saturday to you!!
Friday, June 26, 2015
On this day, one year ago my life as I knew it changed and I am choosing to share it today. I am not saying it out loud to receive sympathy, or to get attention or any praise...it is that reason I haven't said anything really at all. I want to say it now though because it is my life. My truth. What I'm living. I feel like I have come a long way in a year and maybe just maybe it'll explain some of my posts over the last 365.
One year ago, on Thursday, June 26, KP aka The Boy I Like said he wanted a divorce. Yep. It still feels weird when I say it or think it out loud. But yes. After almost 18 yrs of marriage, 23 yrs together, and two amazing children later... I will be divorced soon. This has been a very, very emotional roller coaster year for me, my boys, and for our whole family. A year of many changes and transitions. One thing remains. I love my boys, my family, and Kevin very much. Always. I'm still standing. I have had to dig deep and find ways to be strong, stand and keep going. Things like running, working, Crossfit. Lol. And of course throwing my self deep into my faith!!! On days when it's hard to stand. I kneel and pray hard!!
I want to say to those that know and have known. You know who you are...THANK YOU. Thank you for the hugs, prayers, texts, talks, emails, cards, gifts... for your love!!!! I don't know where'd I'd be without your love and support.
So. Please know this is just my way of moving on a little bit more. Accepting it a little bit more. Facing it a little bit more. Living my truth a little bit more. Maybe also ending the whispers and wondering a little bit more. Please keep my boys and family in your prayers. Pray for KP, too. If you see us, you can hug us, talk to us, high five us, and love on us. And please just pray for us!! We need that the most.
We all have struggles and things we are going through. I am here for yoU, too. Together we will lift each other up and find our light and keep it shining!!! Right? Ok.
That is all.