Brenda & The Boys

On this day, one year ago my life as I knew it changed and I am choosing to share it today. I am not saying it out loud to receive sympathy, or to get attention or any praise...it is that reason I haven't said anything really at all. I want to say it now though because it is my life. My truth. What I'm living. I feel like I have come a long way in a year and maybe just maybe it'll explain some of my posts over the last 365.  One year ago, on Thursday, June 26, KP aka The Boy I Like said he wanted a divorce. Yep. It still feels weird when I say it or think it out loud. But yes. After almost 18 yrs of marriage, 23 yrs together, and two amazing children later... I will be divorced soon. This has been a very, very emotional roller coaster year for me, my boys, and for our whole family. A year of many changes and transitions. One thing remains. I love my boys, my family, and Kevin very much. Always. I'm still standing. I have had to dig deep and find ways to be strong, stand...

Who doesn't go on Pinterest and pin a ton of family portrait poses in hopes to one day be on a family vacation to the whites sands of Destin, FL and have picture perfect photos taken to post on FB? Hello!! Me.  Yes. That WAS me. This summer. We were invited to go to Florida with friends. So, of course I started pinning fun poses. I just knew we would have the BEST Christmas card picture to date! NOT! #pinfulthinking Here's the thing. I can pin all day long. Getting there and actually achieving the pintography and pinposes is another. The day we had our "photo" shoot the wind was blowing, it was getting dark, my boys were tired and uncooperative. Pictures was the LAST thing they wanted to do. I was so upset. I kept watching ALL the other families taking their pics. Holding hands, jumping by the water, SMILING! Not my dudes. Our pics were a hot mess. When we got back to the beach house I literally cried cause not one was in my head, Christmas card worthy. Share...

You all know I love to clean. Cleaning up and cleaning out. I always have a Goodwill pile. My FAVE things to do. I love it!! The bags I fill are weights lifted off and out of my life. I always start a cleansing late Dec. early January. I clean out the boys rooms and playroom to make room for the new toys, books, clothes, and other gifts they/we received at Christmas. This year we even rearranged furniture. Boys helped and they love the change!! Another area I hit every January is the medicine cabinet. I look at expiration dates. I throw out the old stuff. Have a note pad on hand. Make an inventory of things you need to replace. Do you need band aids? First aid ointment? More ibuprofen? The pantry and fridge are other spots I hit the first of Jan. Look at exp. dates. Change out the baking soda boxes in the freezer and fridge. I take out the shelves. Wipe and wash it all down. I throw out old stuff. Condiments that have been on the shelf a while that I know won't be used agai...

Setting/Scene: Yesterday morning in my bathroom getting ready to leave for Field Day at school. MP is brushing his teeth. Alex is taking his vitamins. I walk in and... Me: Matt. Wanna mohawk for field day today? Matt: It's too late Dad already fixed my hair. Me: It's never too late for a mohawk!!!! Alex: It is for Pa!!!  Everyone: Pawahahahahahaha!!!! We love you Pa!!